The Living Room (in progress)

Too Early for pics

I had the bright idea of takin a pic of us right when we woke up.

Indy Pics

Finally a pic of Jen!

Pics from our Wine Tour

We love the Vino!

Xmen

Sat night Jen and I went out to see X-Men III. I'm always unsure of seeing movies at the theater..I don't like to spend 25$ + going to a hyped up movie and being disappointed in the end. Makes me feel like I wasted so much money.

I'm not a film critic but I liked, Why?
I just do.

Clive Law

IT Kick Out! Part #1

My boss is pissed today....

This is an odd occurance because he's not really the type of person who you would think that would go off like he did . You see he's kind of like Milton...he acts almost the same way and talks almost like him but in a Romanian accent.


So randomly some guys came into out office talking and looking around like we weren't even there. I swear I bumped into one and it was like he was playing the ignore game like back when I was a kid. "Oh, was that a bug?"

Fred was pissed because those guys were in here talking about how they were going to be taking this room over. We kinda knew this was going to happen but not anytime soon. We have this place filled to the gills with equiptment. We just set it all up so we are more productive. It took us a month to figure out all the wiring to get all the ports open and running along with other things. Now we have to leave.

See we have to be in a secure room because of all the laptops , PC's and Server. Where they would like to move us is to 3 cubes with no doors? Yeah well we will see how that one goes. We can't even get paper for out printer without someone having a fit about money.

Back to Fred / Milton....he was on their asses about it. He was tellin them that were not moving blah blah blah...I have never heard him cuss before but he was droppin Fuck like no tomarrow.

Tune in Tuesday for the conclusion of :

IT Kick Out!! Starring Milton.

Carb Day??

IT'S FRIDAY!!

Dave picked me up this morning and said that he hit hardly any traffic. As were were driving our usual route to work I mentined that everyone that works downtown must have taken the day off but us because there was no one to compete with for lanes. The strangeness continued on as we pulled into the parking garage we noticed the same thing. I think everyone had the same idea in the city ....stay home.

While we were in the elevator I struck up a conversation with a random lady. She informed us that today was "Carb Day".

Carb Day, what the hell is Carb Day?
I instantly thought that it was some local health day. May be there was a huge race some where like I always see around the city.

She went on to tell us that every year there is a HUGE all day festival at the track where all theIndy cars race. I turned on the radio and googled it...wow it's really a huge event and it looks like everyone knows about it but Dave and I.

Wow there are bands from all over coming and people from all over come to this thing as well. A full day from 8 am till ?. Filled with half naked women and men..alll drunk LOL.

So I guess something from Indiana this is what I'm missing:

Eazy

This is for all mah homies out there that need it:

Chuck Norris in the Morning

Ok so I totally do not remember posting anything lastnight on here. Kinda funny when I look at it.



So for some reason here at work in the good ol IT department we all got on Chuck Norris Jokes, here are a few we came accross:


Chuck Norris recently had the idea to sell his urine as a canned beverage. We know this beverage as Red Bull

On the 7th day, God rested.... Chuck Norris took over.

Chuck Norris is Luke Skywalker's real father.

If you want a list of Chuck Norris' enemies, just check the extinct species list.

Chuck Norris has never blinked in his entire life. Never.

Chuck Norris drinks napalm to quell his heartburn.

God offered Chuck Norris the gift to fly, which he swiftly declined for super strength roundhouse ability.

Chuck Norris does not have AIDS but he gives it to people anyway.

There is no chin behind Chuck Norris' beard. There is only another fist

I don't know why I thought these were so funny but they were this morning.

- Clive Law

Druuuuuuuunk

Tonight Jen and I went out to another wine tasting tonight. So while I'm writing this I'm pretty drunk off the wine..I'll let you know now that I did not see anyone there spit :)

It was a fun time we met alot of people there and yeah ok..I'm going to write more about this in the morn when I have more of a brain left.


Clive Law

The Fight

Last night Jen and I got into a fight. It all started because I noticed that she was acting a little weird. Naturally I asked what was going on. She started to tell me about how she’s starting to feel out of place around here. The girls that she manages at work all act like they are so carefree and that they have nothing to loose. They all go out and party all the time and come back with stories of it all on Monday. When she asked how old they were she found that they were all older than her, ages 27 – 32.

“I’m afraid of getting older”, she said to me. I talked to her about how some of these girls are not in the same place as she is right now. They don’t have ambition or drive to do anything more that what they are doing at this moment. She agreed and we talked more about this. I could still tell something was wrong but she was not giving it up.

Finally she said that she does not know why I’m with her. She doesn’t know why I love her.
“Sometimes I need to know why Jay.”

It’s funny she said that because I had just bought her flowers and a card that said it all. This hurt me, that she would not believe that I love her. I asked her again……”Do you believe I love you?”

She had nothing to say.

I kinda lost it, how could she honestly think that I was just keeping her around for the hell of it? I explained to her that I have given up a lot to show her that I love her. I got rid of my safety net of Mandarins’ memories. I used to keep pics of her all the time so that I would know what it was like to be hurt and to never let myself get to that place again. I explained to her how hard it was to give up my personal pledge to never trust another again. I explained to her how hard it was for me to admit I was in love with her or anyone after Mandarin.

“You seem to have forgotten all the shit I have been through and, how hard it was for me to give my heart to you.”

She put her face down into her hands and started crying.
She forgot.

I took a little break from the moment to calm myself down. Went outside to have a cig. She still had her face covered. I went to her and apologized for yelling at her.
“You didn’t yell at me.”
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”
“I’m so fucking afraid of you!”

She explained that she was very much in love with me and that she could see herself being married to me. I didn’t want this to go on anymore so, I told her all is forgiven but just to not question my love for her. If there is something wrong with her and I, I would say something about it.

She told me before that when she has time to be alone that she thinks way too much about negative things. Situations like this, thinking about why I’m with her then coming up with negative sceneros to play in her mind ultimately upsetting herself.

- Clive Law

Mandarin

I have no idea why but Mandarin popped in my head today. I was not really thinking about anything and poof there she is.

She has been gone now for over 3 years and still this haunts me from time to time.

I found her mothers E-Mail addy online. At first I had no idea what to say to her. She was always a little funny with me for some reason.

I think in a way I was blamed for everything and I guess in many ways I was. I was not the person I should have been to her. She was younger than me and I was ready to make her my wife. She was not ready for anything like that. Now I can understand it but at the time it was just like a knife right in my chest. I don't want to go through this anymore, I thought I was done with you and your memories. Your ghosts still haunts me. Please leave me alone Mandarin. I don't want to cry over you ever again.

Clive Law

My Couch!

Jen and I finally got a couch yesterday. See we went to Chicago to the IKEA because we seen a couch that we really wanted.

Exhibit A:


So this is a very nice couch and it fits our style not to mention it was only $200.00.

"How much does this cost to ship to our house in Indianapolis?"

"That will be $300.00 to ship"
Ahhh no way were going to pay $300 to have it shipped when it's only worth $200 to begin with. So, we delayed getting the couch untill we could figure out some way of getting it home cheaper. The other day Jen stopped by the Scandinavian Furniture store and looked at a few things. We had been there before and saw a lot we liked but it was just too expensive for us at the time. As soon as I got home we set out to look for a couch.

So back to the Scand Store we go....Immediatly I liked this one couch but they wanted 800 for it. Wait, it's on sale for 700...hmm lemme see what I can do. I talked to the owner of the place and got him to drop it by another $100. Now all we needed to do was pay tax and shipping. This is the couch we bought but we ordered it in a cream color. Oh, yeah they have a warehouse a few blocks away so we don't have to wait for the new one. Ahh so yeah back to the pic........
Enter Exhibit B:

INTRODUCING MY NEW LOVE:
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I'll give more details later :)

Clive Law

Toyz

Today out Super gave us some new toys to use and I love it!!

I need, yes need one of these for my home use. He suggested we use it for the "Centerfolds" LOL!

Today is pretty good. I got a lot done in a short amount of time and now it's Chilaxin time!!

The Rise of the Creative Class

I actualy did some work today and got some time in as well to read. I found this book at a little shop in the discount bin for 1$ but it's well worth more:

I love this book so far because it speaks about me and how I work best. I highly reccomend it to anyone that works with and or around technology. This really hits the spot!

Dayz go By

So another day another few dollars.

I hate that I usually only write about things that piss me off or annoy me but here it goes.
So Dave is on this "move" team here. Moving cubes around to different locations...cool. Well once again he's trying to make it sound more than it is and for some reason had to tell me he had a conf call 4 times this morning.



What ever makes you feel important I guess? I just came in from checking to see if we got anymore PC's in. We were told there were about 60 more. Turns out they are all laptops and they aren't even for us. So I came back in to let Dave know that there was no rush because we hardly had any in. He looked up at me from his chair and gave me the little hand sign for "Cut-it". I don't know why but this about pissed me off?

I guess this conf call about moving cubes upstairs is pretty interesting LOL



Ahh well another day another few dollars

Clive Law

Ramble On

I've been lookin on line for some of my old Hacker buddies and I found only one. B-$tring...I'm not sure how he's really doing but from some of his blogs I found not too well.

God, I'm bored today...but got xp on my laptop and downloaded all the cool proggies that I wanted. On the way home think I'll fire up net stumbler and see who's out there unsecured.

Jen won't be home till late tonight and I know Jen#2 (roommate) will be there. She get's on my nerves so friggn bad. Is it bad that I just want to tell her to shut up or smack her one? She competes for my Jen's attention with me like we were siblings fighting over mother. I realise that she does not have a mom or really a dad but shit your 24 grow th e hell up and leave me out of it!

Clive Law

It was a great weekend. Jen and I went out to the store and picked out a few bottles of wine for out own inhouse tasting. We both picked one we thought we would like, then we picked out one together.


Went home with out booze an popped in disk one of season 2 Nip/Tuck. We also bought some Pita bread and Basil/Tomato Hummus. I cut the pita bread into small triangles, butter, salt, and basil on top. Baked on 350 for about 10 mins. Damn good stuff just like in those fancy wine bars LOL.

I'll list the wines we tried that night on here for you all to see and try yourself.


Sunday Jen and I went to Easley Winery for the grand tour of the place. Really there was not much to see it's a small operation but I did learn some things about wine I had no idea about. We sampled a few of what they had to offer but honestly there was nothing that really stuck out.

Ahh but then there was the Honey wine. It was very very sweet really too sweet for me. I guess that sticks out in my head because I didn't like it at all. So after our free wine tasting at Easleys we marched on over to Dino's Vino but, Dino was closed. I remembered that there was a place in BroadRipple that had a pretty nice wine bar.

We were not even sure if they were open. I could see no customers and there was hardly anyone around as far as staff goes. I know I was underdressed from the look I got while walking in by the waiter. I think it was the hat.

We ordered a few flights to check out I had the "Travelers Flight" and Jen had the "Zin Flight".


Clive Law

Jen bought Nip/Tuck season 2 lastnight, got an awsome deal on it from Target I think.


Syn sent me an e-mail with his new joy in his life..the extended desktop
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Makes me happy in a geeky way that he's advancing and taking some suggestions that I had made to him a long time ago :)


My little geek is growing up!!

- Clive Law

H@ppy C400 Day!

So I'm getting a new laptop today YAAY!! Ok, so it's not entirely new but it's still better than what I have goin on now.

I have an older Compaq that has been living way beyond it's means. The poor things has an external monitor, keyboard, mouse, cd-rom drive, NIC and a frayed power cord. It's screaming to die, it's the equivalent to an old lady who has broken her hip, leg, knee surgury, brain tumor and blind. She just needs to be let go. My modern medicine has kept this thing alive for too long.

So here is it's replacement:

No, it's not the fastest or the best but for $300.00 it is. Going from a 500 Mhz to 1.2 Gig is great. I only had a 5 gig HD in the Compaq this is 20. No wireless have ever touched the Compaq, this is built-in. 128 RAM old, 512 new.


So yeah I'm pretty happy with it even though I have not played with it yet. The situation was kinda funny. I saw the ad on Craigslist and thought WTF let's see if he still has it. I wrote an email that said only "Do you still have the laptop?" He replied yes and that he lived about 45 mins from downtown. Later on during the day he wrote back from another e-mail address:

"I just looked at your email address and noticed you work here hehe :) You emailed me about my laptop on sale on Craigslist. I actually have the laptop here if you want to come look at it. "

Ryan O

He worked a few floors above me. I thought it was pretty funny and it has to be a sign to buy the laptop. I had been lookin for sometime now and have not been too impressed with anything. I wanted something smaller and lightweight and I found it.


Happy C400 D@y!

Clive Law

@work

Another day of nothing but I'm pretty tired today so it's not sweat off my back.



My co-worker (someone I brought on this project with me) is about getting on my nerves. We will call him 1up. You have all heard of the "one upper". Everytime someone talks about something, he's been there done that and more or knows someone that has.

I really don't know how long I will end up keeping him on this project with me. He does not really know that I do have a little power all of that. I don't want to tell him because unlike him I try not to be the "One Upper".

Just today he was telling me that his mom was some super brain woman and he also knew someone that was once on the Mensa Board at like age 19 and was accepted to Harvard with just a G.E.D.

Wow, I'M IMPRESSED!! NO!


Now he's trying to be impressive with his well thought out words that have no flow and are clearly said just to make him seem like a smart guy.


Little does he realize that they bosses talk to me about this and it's in one ear with them and out the other.

For the past few days, well make that weeks on this project we have had a lot of down time. I thought I would like this and yeah there are times I do but now it's starting to get boring. Ahhh well I guess I could have some shitty job workin my ass off for nothing.


Jen and I have been talking more about getting married. We get along great and I do love her so I have been looking at ideas for rings.

Here's a few I was kinda thinkin of:

Trauma

It's been some time now that I have been able to have enough time to get on and write about anything.

Finally got a new job after about 2.5 months of sitting on mah ass and going to interviews all over the city.





Yesterday Jen and I were driving back home from doing a little needless shopping when I saw a car in the middle of the road with the entire front end crunched in. I saw a lady on the the cell phone so I pulled over to see if she was alright. She said she was but she did not know what happened. I looked around and saw that there was no other cars around that looked like they were involved. There were no poles that were damaged or anything like that either.

She said she was ok but that her cousin was in the car and was hurt. I looked in and there she was laying on the seat, her head was cut open and bleeding pretty bad. I looked up and saw that she had smashed her head on the windshield. There was a clear indention in the glass from it. I asked her to stay still and that we would have someone out as soon as they could get here. Jen was calling the police while all of this was going on.

The lady said that she was driving and that a car had hit her head on but she does not know where it went. I asked for a description of the car so I could look around the neighborhood and find it. I looked down the road and saw a white truck pulled over on the wrong side of the road with a man exiting it. The funny thing was that his car was pointed in the same direction as she was but they were going opposite ways when the accident occured. I went over to him accross four lanes of traffic. He was holding his head and could barely speak. He said that he was travelling the other direction but she hit him and spun him around. His car was about a 1/2 mile from the actual site though.

I assured him as well that we were getting someone out there to take care of him and everyone else and to just go back and sit in his car. I felt so bad for him too because he was totally out of it.

i went back to check on the lady and her cousin. Jen had offered a seat in our car to get out of the rain. Just then the para and police showed up.

I just sat there for a min not sure what to do. A few others had stopped as well to make sure everyone was ok. One lady just got out of church and saw everything going on and stopped. She came up to Jen and I and gave us a hug each for stopping.

I have always worn a seatbelt but seeing this trauma makes me a true beliver.

Clive Law

Something

Back from our weekend!
I did not really want to come back so early actually we didn't. Jen and I decided to stay till Monday on Sunday night. I had gone there for Syns' network issues..slow throughput with no sec at all on his wireless setup at all. As a matter of fact at about 8 am I check the connections and he actually had someone in the neighborhood piggy backing on his sys. I set up WEP and filtered the MAC's and hid the SSID...secure as he's gonna get for what he's got but way better than before.

Syns throughput issue were solved simply by clearing cache on all PC's and resetting the routers. What no firewalls! Yeah he was concerned about sec but had nothing setup. He was worried about "hackers" and things of that nature so I set him up with the standard Zone Alarm and configed that with subnet addresses for local access only..once again best I could do for what he had but better than before. Also made sure he had updated Norton for all PC's.

He's starting to become like all other users out there, wants not to be bothered with a growing network sec issues but wants to be secure. We had a nice long talk about that.

Whenever I go back I'm going to setup a file server for him, they are pulling files from each others PC's cloggin it bad that way and it's bad enough that Syn has 5 Ext HD's sitting on his desk!

Friday before we left I had went to an interview. I went in not really wanting the job but by the time I was ready to leave after the tour, I really felt I had to work there. They had a library setup for the employees to study for your certs and paid for all of it!

Ahh that would be great but nothing good like that happens to me :(

.....................

THIS PLACE SUX

Due to some scheduling issues I have a new Supervisor! Ahhh NO!! I dont want that shit!!

Jen and I are going to Ohio this Friday. I couldnot decide where I wanted to go , Columbus to see Eric and Katie or Akron for Syn and Dani. It's been a bit since I have seen either of them but in the end I chose to go back to the Cleveland area. Feels more like home there and I have better memories in thta area.

I stopped by Starbucks yesterday after work (had Jeff drop me off there) to see Jen . She was about to go on her lunch which was coolo. I was in a bad mood could hardly focus on work ..about to cry all day. I n eeed to find aplce to live and pretty soon.

beavis?

It snowed this morning, well lastnight but there is hardly any one the roads to make a fuss about but for some reason people are having crashes all over the palce. One death so far and multiple injuries all over the place. Come on you Hoosiers what the heck, really you all act like you have never seen snow before!


The guy sitting next to me just advisewd me with glee that there are now Bevis and Butthead playing cards out online!! me: "Not cool man, not cool at all"
Clive Law

BORED IN THE MORN

Seems like this place is going to hell. New hires usually go through a training peroiod that lasts about 2 weeks and in itself is not enough time for the type of people they hire, now apparently the trainers just got word that Verizon wants more people out on the floor ..NOW!! So this means we will have untrained people taking calls not knowing their ass from who knows! Whats this mean for the rest of us? Cleaning up their mess!! I guess this can be seen as a good thing because all these people are going to suck so bad it's going to make me look like a guru of adsl.

I dont know whats goin on tiday I think Verizon is pissed at us. I have taken a total of 3 calls for the day so far not cool..Im getting bored..I do bad things when Im bored .

You know it's going to be a long day when someone asks me what the "period" is on their keyboard.

FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUC,K STUPID FUCKIN USERS I HATE THEM ALL ...ALLLLLL!!! PIECES OF SHIT DIE NOW!!
45 fuckin mins for a fuckin retarded fuck to do a simple modem config!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm surprized there is not a huge rate for violence in the workplace for tech support because im about to kill

7am

Gotta love comin in to work way too early...........

7AM and I have to be here till at leat 8pm tonight. Trying to get my promotion but I have way too many points to get it now so for the next 5 days I will be here for 13 hours !

I was at Starbucks Jen yester day when I overheard a lady say she was an IT recruiter and had some connections from past jobs. I totally involved myself in her conversation with one of the employees there and asked what her name and contact info was. I gave her the condensed resume from my brain. She had no card but wrote all in her info on a piece of paper from a bag she had.

Yesterday I freaked out a little. I was moving my things into Jen's house and all of the sudden got a little sad? I should be happy right? I mean I'm moving in with my gf and things should be better for me. Jen asked what was wrong with me , "I don't know" is all I could say to her because well, I had no real idea why Iwas sad. I got over it with dome time alone in our room but still I can't figure out what the heck my problem was.

Clive Law

VERIZONS SPECIAL KIDS

OM MY FUCKIN GOD!! So I decided to be nice and come in to help out a little tonight at work. I needed the money and I was bored anyways, well thIS was the night from fuckin hell!!

I swear EVERY person I talked to tonight had no idea of what they were doing at all...now I remember why I don't work weekends!
AHHHHH!! NEVER AGAIN!!

Rental Communication

Jeff somehow forgot to pay the rent for the past two months so once again I find myself looking for a place to stay. Ususally this would not be a problem because I could just move to Chicago but I have Jen now in my life and I can't leave her like that.

I got the call about 2pm Jen and I had just pulled into the half price book store. I have been searching for cheap books for my N+ test. I'm about ready to take it but the books I have been using are a little old and I'm pretty sure that the old coax cable days are gone.

Jeff started out by saying he had bad news. What the hell could this be about? Did Verizon somehow contact him about my server error the other night and want to fire me? Yeah a bit irrational but that's how my brain works sometimes. "Yeah so I just talked to the leasing office and they said if I don't come up with about $1,400.00 we have to move out by the 16th or eviction will be processed." Ahh WTF Jeff!!

I had been staying with Jen for the past two weeks really for no reason other than we are in a new relationship and that's how things go, plus it was nice to have someone to hold on these cold nights (whatta sob I can be sometimes).

So back to Jeff and my situation. Things were goin great besides the fact that I just found out that I was going to be homeless. I was shocked and had the life drained out of me. I had taken the day off from work so Jen and I could hang out plus I had some issues I didn't want to deal with at work that day. Now after hearing that news I was instantly in a bad mood. I could not talk I didn't even want to look for books anymore and this is usually something I'm excited about.

Jen noticed I was being quiet but she didn't bother to ask what was wrong. She's cool like that , there are just some times when I don't need to talk just sit like a derpressed Buddhist Monk. Jen had to go to Walmart for some prescription she had to get. While we were there waiting for it to be filled we walked around looking at things we don't want and need. We came accross the bath mats and I got sad. Guess a little explanation is due about that last comment.

I'm a little OCD and I have a fear of standing in showers that are used, So yea everywhere I go I have to have something down or I freak out ...BAD.

So Jen was suggesting we get one for her apartment because I'm over there alot and usually use one of her towels for my little crazy thing. Honestly I get excited over stupid things like a new bath mat but this time I couldn't. I was sad and I could not say anything. All I could think about was the fact that I would have to move away from her in order to live. I did not want to ask Jen if I could live with her because well it's just not right.

So I don't exactly remember how this all happened or what she said but I was just at that breaking point of the day and that was all it took. I got pissed and went out to the car untill she was done with her shopping. Later on that night we talked more about what was going on and why I was feeling so moody.

I mentioned to Jen that I might have to move if I could not work something out so Jeff and I could live in out apartment. I knew it was a lost cause we were in the hole and bad. After some crying and things of that nature she asked me to live with her and her roommate. She would have to talk to Jen(yes her roommate is Jen as well ) about it first then get back to me the next day. I was not really counting on anything.

This is why I did not want to get into a relationship, if something like this were to happen I could just pickup and move and not miss a thing. When I was telling Jen that I would have to go I started to harden inside no tears I was ready to leave her if I had to for my survival. Then she had a look on her face like she was about to just break down. She wouldn't say anything to me. I almost had to shake her just for a few words.

"Oh my God, I knew it was too good to be true. It's just like my whole world is about to come apart right now and I'm really trying not to have a mental breakdown right now."

The way she looked when she said that I knew I couldn't leave her. She really cared about me I could see it. Then she said it....what had been on her mind and why she could n't really talk.

"I love you"

How could I leave someone in love with me. I know the feelings that she has because I have them too, I can't leave.

The next day I was at work feeling like shit because I didn't know how the conversation was going to go with Jen#2 about me moving in. I had been there for two weeks and thought I might of outstayed myself a bit.

I text'd Jen on her phone:

How are you doing today?
"I'm doing better than great! jen said yes!!! I was going to wait to tell you but I just couldn't !"

My heart about popped out of my chest, here I was going to be living with Jen. I have not lived with anyone in so long it's scarey. I have just gotten used to being alone and loving it. How is all of this going to work out? Will we get along? Am I going to be able to be myself?

I was happy really happy and wanted to jump out of my chair at work but at the same time I wanted to run like hell!
When Jen picked me up I was not sure how to act. I was going through so much in my head I was not sure where to start. Why not discuss it over dinner, make it into a celebration to take some of the edge off...right?

I wanted Chinese she wanted something else but gave in at the last min. :) <------big grin here
I love those Chinese Places so much food so much to choose from although I never stray from what I know and usually eat. I just like being surrounded by so many choices.

Went back to her apartment and then we talked more about these crazy feelings I was having. She had noticed that I was not real excited acting...I was excited but scared too. It was really funny but she was feeling a little scared to but it was more about me and my happiness living with her that she was more concerned about. Jen knows that I am a person who loves and values his alone time. I love and I get so many mental obsticles out of the way. She assured me that she would never stop me from doing anything (within reason) and give me all the space I needed.

We both agreed that no matter what we would always keep the communication going.


Clive Law

Conversations

Jen and I had a nice past few nights. She had got 3 days off from work because a few of her friends from back home were comin down, she had been planning this for months. On Friday she had got a voicemail from her one friend sayin that they would not be able to make it due to a flat tire and how much it would cost to fix it.

She was already having a hard time about getting older (25) and making new friends here has been hard for her so, all she wanted was to be with her best friends on her B-Day. I was not really planning on be around all that much I wanted to work all this weekend and then some. I had no idea what to say to her and how to react I knew she was feeling like crap about it all. I don't think I have witnesses her like this before and it was killing me. I had not prepared for her B-day and I only had about $40.00 on me. So, we went out to BW-3s had Chicken wings and beer. I was absolutly tired from not gettting any sleep the night before. I had woke up at 4 am and been up ever since.

As we ate and drank the night away we talked about a lot of things. She told me all about her relationship wth her biological father. She told me all about how he had left I think when she was about 7 years old and never saw her after that although he had only lived about 20 miles away. He mentioned to her mother that the reason why he had decided to stay away was because she always cried when he left her. According to him he did not want to see this so he decided to just stay away. Jen does not understand how he could do this and never try to be a part of her life. The conversation got pretty deep and Jen started to cry...could of been the beer to though.

Yea so we both got down to the nitty gritty of our lives..it was a good conversation for the both of us to have.

Clive Law

xANAx Hangover?

Yeah so the Xanax thing....hmmm well I'm not feeling very cool today here at work. I can't think for the life of me. I have been talking to people and just can't seem to comprehend what they are saying to mt. I think I'm going to have to leave early but I really need the money for my kids. Texted Jen to see if she can come and get me..no response yet :(

Decisions decisions.....
Clive
11:45AM

XANAX

Yummy Yummy and good night to all....hmm I think I'm starting to get addicted to this shit.

When I don't take these I don't have cool dreams.






More @ 11

Clive

What a long friggin day...I'm on the phone with this old guy who can barely be alive! Sometimes it's so hard to stay focused! I should really be listening to this guy and coaching him along but I really dont feel like it right now. Got heree at about 8:30 am started at 9am...long time to sit on your ass if you ask me.

Jen

For the past few nights I have been stayin with Jen. I'm starting to like her a lot, this is scarey. I don't know what the hell I was thinking!! Lastnight she was talking about her best friend and roommate Yet another Jen, wanted to move to AZ. My Jen said that she did not want to go so I like a retard let my dumb mouth open up and tell her that she could live with me. I really would not mind living together but I was afraid that I freaked her out. She said she wasn't at all but she really didn't talk anymore about it.

Talking to Jeff my roommate today about all of this, he said it was a cool idea but not to do anything like that to soon. He was real happy for me that I FINALLY found someone that I could trust and like as much as I do.

Ok well I planned on writing more about all of this but I took a Xanax and an melatonin so I'm getting pretty dizzy.

Ciao For Now,
Clive Law

Wedding Pics

Syn and Dani finally released some pics from the wedding to the public.. Yeah we think were cool!

Goin On Without Me

Got an e-mail lastnight from Syn. They have dreamed of doing this for a long time now. They have been running their business right of out their home for years now...or is it they have been living out of their business? Finally they can move out to another apartment and remodel the loft for just the studio. They rented out the apartment upstairs so they actually have a place they can call home.

I'm so proud of these two ..I can remember when Syn and I were on the front step everyday syn with the guitar and I would sing really crazy songs about kitty litter. Some days people would actually throw change at us while they were driving by..LOL "Yay we made $0.35 today!" Really that's how we met. I worked on the same block. I was walking back from work and I had seen Syn out front playin his guitar for days and I wanted to know what he was doin. I was at the time Mr. Stick up mah ass lookin..I was they guy that always had his shirt tucked in tryin to fit in with the business guys. Syn was my total opposite but after talking for about an hour out there the night progressed on till about 5am. Syn his fiance Danielle and I have hung out ever since. They have helped me in so many ways it's too much to write here. Through them I also met some other close friends.

Everyone loves this couple , there is something real special about them. I had the honor of being one of two best men in their wedding. I never thought that I would be anything like to to anyone. I was not expecting that at all. It was a dream like wedding I was so happy for them.

I do feel bad that I'm not there to help out with this remodeling of the studio..I have always been there for them during any major event for the place but now I can't. I moved ...I should of stayed around. I wonder if it's sick to be in love with a couple like I am?

Clive Law

The Truth

Ok.... what?

There have been alot of changes in the past few months and I have not kept up on any of them.

I'm working dsl tech support for a large phone company..you know, Mufasa?

So yeah it's a lot better than my previous job but not as cool as others thats I've had. I can't complain though it's not like I have to get all dressed up to go to work, I can wear whatever I want to sit back and try to relax as I have people yelling at me because they decided to change some settings on their PC and it messed everything up.

Some customers really want to tear into you during these calls. ... so badly I just want to say " You know Sir/Mam, I do know where you live and I have all the info I need right in front of me to do what I need to do so FUCK OFF!" Ok got that out now I feel better.

Some of the people I talk to on the other hand are commical for instance:
Call: TechWinInstall
This lady could not understand for the life of her why her internet was not working. Immediatly I ask if her modem is plugged in and she had no idea. When she went to check she asked what she should plug the power cord into.

"Well, you plug it into the outlet."
She then replied, "What's that look like it's very dark in here!"

WOW, yeah I said that to her what could I do but laugh? This lady had no lamps plugged in and she could not see anything.

So yeah that's one thing I'm doing these days. I have also found myself working on a soundtrack for a videogame more on that later...gotta go.

Clive Law

Bored

So here I am on Monday bored as fuck in the Local Lib station. I don't have anything to do these days. I got so used to working nights and fuckin off during the days that it's weird to have a few weeks off from all of that. The good thing is that I have access to a lot of books!

There's a girl sitting a few feet away from me that loks exactly like Sherry. It's almost scarey to me. Damn I wonder what it would be like if I had stayed with her. I know that I would be better off finacially but as far as my happiness goes I would be dying about now. She stood in the military as far as I heard and she was off to Iraq.

I don't know if she ever made it back or what happened with all of that. This girl makes the same faces as her even. I can tell she's about 19 just like when I met Sherry.

I don't know what the fuck I'm writing about anymore Im gone!

Clive

WTF?

So yea when I left here the other day I got a call, it was HP! What are they calling about, to just rub in the fact that they are not going to hire me after saying that they would?
It was a woman named Ashley. She said that there were a few people that were not going to work out for the company and if I was still interested that they would love to have me on the team. WTF? I had no idea what to day because I had just applied for another IT job that day and was hired on the spot. Also I have an intership with another Tech company (which reminds me I have to call again about today).

After some time thinking about it I called her back and said that I would take the offer. I start on the 29th. Well what do I do in the meantime? Now I have to go back to Verizon and tell them after all of that shit in one day I can't work for them. This HP thing had better go as planned or I'll have to hang someone from their eyelids!

After droppin Jen (my roommate) off at work I went down the street to the Tech place where I was wanting the internship. There was another guy there. I explained what I was looking for and he was not cool with it. He said that he wanted to pay me something for my time. I don't think he understands that I have a job and all I was and am looking for is expierence in the IT field. No matter he said that him and his partner would be talking more about it today and call me as soon as they have come to an agreement.

It's almost 4p now I hope they call me soon.

Clive Law

HP FUCKS!

Ahhh so I moved here because I was supposed to start working for HP. Well as it turns out someone at the recruiting office I went to for the job fucked up and took way too long submitting my info and they pulled the offer. What the hell am I going to do now. I have to somehow make it to Akron for Syn's wedding and I have absolutly no cash, and I'm the best man!

This really sucks bad, yeah that's all the words I have for it too.

I went to this place that does Tech Support for Verizon Online and got a job but it only pays $9.00 an hour....SHIT! I dunno once again how I'm going to do it but I have no other optionsbut to try again. Another situation that I face now is that I don't have a way out there. If I had a car it's only like 7 miles down the road and hardly a trip to take but I don't and my hours are 3:30p to midnight. If Jen really had to she could pick me up then but how do I get there? I have not seen any bus routes going out there.

God I really hope this was all in you plan for me, really because I can't handle much more than this!

Clive

Indianapolis

So here I am in a new city once again. I have not had access to an interet connection in some time now but I have finally made it to the local library. Pretty cool here they loan out laptops for use in the library. I have soo much to write but don't feel really like doing it all right now. I may come back tonight if I can.

Things are already starting off on the wrong foot here!