Mandarin

I have no idea why but Mandarin popped in my head today. I was not really thinking about anything and poof there she is.

She has been gone now for over 3 years and still this haunts me from time to time.

I found her mothers E-Mail addy online. At first I had no idea what to say to her. She was always a little funny with me for some reason.

I think in a way I was blamed for everything and I guess in many ways I was. I was not the person I should have been to her. She was younger than me and I was ready to make her my wife. She was not ready for anything like that. Now I can understand it but at the time it was just like a knife right in my chest. I don't want to go through this anymore, I thought I was done with you and your memories. Your ghosts still haunts me. Please leave me alone Mandarin. I don't want to cry over you ever again.

Clive Law