Conversations

Jen and I had a nice past few nights. She had got 3 days off from work because a few of her friends from back home were comin down, she had been planning this for months. On Friday she had got a voicemail from her one friend sayin that they would not be able to make it due to a flat tire and how much it would cost to fix it.

She was already having a hard time about getting older (25) and making new friends here has been hard for her so, all she wanted was to be with her best friends on her B-Day. I was not really planning on be around all that much I wanted to work all this weekend and then some. I had no idea what to say to her and how to react I knew she was feeling like crap about it all. I don't think I have witnesses her like this before and it was killing me. I had not prepared for her B-day and I only had about $40.00 on me. So, we went out to BW-3s had Chicken wings and beer. I was absolutly tired from not gettting any sleep the night before. I had woke up at 4 am and been up ever since.

As we ate and drank the night away we talked about a lot of things. She told me all about her relationship wth her biological father. She told me all about how he had left I think when she was about 7 years old and never saw her after that although he had only lived about 20 miles away. He mentioned to her mother that the reason why he had decided to stay away was because she always cried when he left her. According to him he did not want to see this so he decided to just stay away. Jen does not understand how he could do this and never try to be a part of her life. The conversation got pretty deep and Jen started to cry...could of been the beer to though.

Yea so we both got down to the nitty gritty of our lives..it was a good conversation for the both of us to have.

Clive Law

xANAx Hangover?

Yeah so the Xanax thing....hmmm well I'm not feeling very cool today here at work. I can't think for the life of me. I have been talking to people and just can't seem to comprehend what they are saying to mt. I think I'm going to have to leave early but I really need the money for my kids. Texted Jen to see if she can come and get me..no response yet :(

Decisions decisions.....
Clive
11:45AM

XANAX

Yummy Yummy and good night to all....hmm I think I'm starting to get addicted to this shit.

When I don't take these I don't have cool dreams.






More @ 11

Clive

What a long friggin day...I'm on the phone with this old guy who can barely be alive! Sometimes it's so hard to stay focused! I should really be listening to this guy and coaching him along but I really dont feel like it right now. Got heree at about 8:30 am started at 9am...long time to sit on your ass if you ask me.

Jen

For the past few nights I have been stayin with Jen. I'm starting to like her a lot, this is scarey. I don't know what the hell I was thinking!! Lastnight she was talking about her best friend and roommate Yet another Jen, wanted to move to AZ. My Jen said that she did not want to go so I like a retard let my dumb mouth open up and tell her that she could live with me. I really would not mind living together but I was afraid that I freaked her out. She said she wasn't at all but she really didn't talk anymore about it.

Talking to Jeff my roommate today about all of this, he said it was a cool idea but not to do anything like that to soon. He was real happy for me that I FINALLY found someone that I could trust and like as much as I do.

Ok well I planned on writing more about all of this but I took a Xanax and an melatonin so I'm getting pretty dizzy.

Ciao For Now,
Clive Law

Wedding Pics

Syn and Dani finally released some pics from the wedding to the public.. Yeah we think were cool!

Goin On Without Me

Got an e-mail lastnight from Syn. They have dreamed of doing this for a long time now. They have been running their business right of out their home for years now...or is it they have been living out of their business? Finally they can move out to another apartment and remodel the loft for just the studio. They rented out the apartment upstairs so they actually have a place they can call home.

I'm so proud of these two ..I can remember when Syn and I were on the front step everyday syn with the guitar and I would sing really crazy songs about kitty litter. Some days people would actually throw change at us while they were driving by..LOL "Yay we made $0.35 today!" Really that's how we met. I worked on the same block. I was walking back from work and I had seen Syn out front playin his guitar for days and I wanted to know what he was doin. I was at the time Mr. Stick up mah ass lookin..I was they guy that always had his shirt tucked in tryin to fit in with the business guys. Syn was my total opposite but after talking for about an hour out there the night progressed on till about 5am. Syn his fiance Danielle and I have hung out ever since. They have helped me in so many ways it's too much to write here. Through them I also met some other close friends.

Everyone loves this couple , there is something real special about them. I had the honor of being one of two best men in their wedding. I never thought that I would be anything like to to anyone. I was not expecting that at all. It was a dream like wedding I was so happy for them.

I do feel bad that I'm not there to help out with this remodeling of the studio..I have always been there for them during any major event for the place but now I can't. I moved ...I should of stayed around. I wonder if it's sick to be in love with a couple like I am?

Clive Law

The Truth

Ok.... what?

There have been alot of changes in the past few months and I have not kept up on any of them.

I'm working dsl tech support for a large phone company..you know, Mufasa?

So yeah it's a lot better than my previous job but not as cool as others thats I've had. I can't complain though it's not like I have to get all dressed up to go to work, I can wear whatever I want to sit back and try to relax as I have people yelling at me because they decided to change some settings on their PC and it messed everything up.

Some customers really want to tear into you during these calls. ... so badly I just want to say " You know Sir/Mam, I do know where you live and I have all the info I need right in front of me to do what I need to do so FUCK OFF!" Ok got that out now I feel better.

Some of the people I talk to on the other hand are commical for instance:
Call: TechWinInstall
This lady could not understand for the life of her why her internet was not working. Immediatly I ask if her modem is plugged in and she had no idea. When she went to check she asked what she should plug the power cord into.

"Well, you plug it into the outlet."
She then replied, "What's that look like it's very dark in here!"

WOW, yeah I said that to her what could I do but laugh? This lady had no lamps plugged in and she could not see anything.

So yeah that's one thing I'm doing these days. I have also found myself working on a soundtrack for a videogame more on that later...gotta go.

Clive Law