Strange

Strange things happen to me sometimes....
So I wrote that blog about not having friends and shit like that. Yesterday right after I posted that I got an email from a recruiter looking for this:

Here you go.



This is at least 1 year long maybe contract to hire.

Job Description

Position Description

Administration of phase II of SAP ERP implementation.

Take detailed notes at business meetings

Assist project manager writing/building the project plan.

Must be technically savvy. But not technical

Rate $30.00 hr


Now I told him I didn't know alot of SAP just now getting Basis down and he said it's "Not a show stopper"

We went on to talk about it and it's in Cleveland... where all my friends are at! I told him what I could do and could not... he thought I should interview anyways.

I talked to Jen about it and she was not to sure about moving there... she does not want to be to far from her family with the baby coming. I can understand that but I can't pass this up ... I would be a fool!

His last email to me was when would I be available to start and would I have to give notice? Wow .. so I called Jason back home in Akron.. he's really excited and went on to say how he had no friends over there anymore.. everyone has their own lives and have moved away. Another funny thing too...Ann Marie was there and she actually said hi to me. I have been calling emailing and myspacing her ass for a long time with no response... the last time I saw her she got pissed at me because I didn't like her abusive boyfriend. After that she would not talk to me anymore.

Things have taken a strange but good turn.

Clive

Destination Nowhere

This is going to sound so bad and I know anyone reading it without any background on me is going to think I'm just a complete asshole but here it goes.

I'm not sure if I'm in love with Jen anymore. I can't tell what it is. We have fallen into this rut of daily activities that I'm just not used to having. We go to work ... come home , dinner watch the same shows, bed, start again. Weekends are a bore too.

This last weekend we did nothing but sit around. Some days it's nice but I'm starting not to like it.


On Saturday I just wanted to leave .. drive off somewhere with or without her and go nowhere for awhile ... like a day. Just drive with no destination.

I'm going crazy once again. I feel this sometimes and don't know how to handle it. I question my relationship with Jen on constant intervals throughout the day. I can't have sex with her anymore .. I'm not attracted to her. On the other hand I feel real bad for feeling this way.


I see other girls and I know I could be dating them but on the other hand I fell in love with Jen personality .. .those girls didn't really have one. No ambitions.

I want to do more. I want us both to do more together... I like wandering the Earth taking pictures.. she thinks I'm weird.

I don't know what to do.

Clive Law